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March 31, 2005
I've decided I can't hold Adam responsible for remembering our anniversary. It was so hectic how we got together. There are a couple of different places that you could start counting from, and we've never really talked about it, so I'm just gonna bring it up. I'm counting from the time we kissed on my porch. After Iris and everything. To celebrate I got him an airbrush. He's gonna crap himself when he sees it!
April 1, 2005
I have to really be on guard today. My family is vicious with the April Fool's pranks. Kevin, of course, is the real wild card. But I should be due for some revenge from Luke. While he was sleeping I re-set his alarm and tore off today's date on his calendar. So he woke up late, thinking it was a day later. I knew his science geek brain wouldn't be able to handle it. He thought he'd entered that space-time continue-um thingy.
April 2, 2005
Well, leave it to the Divine-ish One to ruin a perfectly good anniversary. Adam was surprised when I told him but then he got excited and started talking about taking me out somewhere nice. Yippee! But, of course, my good spirits came crashing down when I had to sign up for Mock Trial. So now, I have to busy myself trying to prosecute Jack from Jack and the Beanstalk. Who thinks this stuff up? At least Adam got roped into it, too. He has to be Jack for Grace who's my opponent. Won't that be fun!
April 3, 2005
I've been going over all the materials for Mock Trial and it's actually kind of cool. And it'll be fun sticking it to Grace. You know, because she's all anti about everything and no laws and all of that. Maybe that's why I had to join. To make Grace see the value of the system. I mean, Jack seems totally guilty to me. It's too bad it has to be Adam up on that stand, because I'm going to put his feet to the fire. It's almost unfair because I know Adam so well. If he's lying, I'll know. He can't hide anything from me.
April 4, 2005
Why? Why why why why WHY WHY WHY WHY????? Why me? Adam slept with Bonnie. He's been cheating on me since…I don't know how long. I don't want to know. I'm so hurt and so angry. I thought the Almighty One was supposed to be kind and loving. So why does he keep making me so miserable? I loved Adam. I still love Adam. And I trusted him and he betrayed me. I don't see how I'll ever be able to get over this. I feel like everything that I've known, everything that I've believed in was all just crap.
April 5, 2005
This has been the worst year of my life. First Judith and now Adam. Am I going to lose everyone I love? You Know Who says that it's not punishment. That I'm just learning about life and that I have to see the goodness despite the pain and all the bad things. But I don't know how to do that. It seems to me the best way is to just shut myself down. Never let myself get in that position again. How can I ever trust again, when the people I love turn out to be cheats and liars?
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