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HoH Blog: Elissa

Posted on Aug 28, 2013 02:40pm

Omgoshhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe I finally am HOH!!!!! I wanted to win this sooooooo badly, I do have a HUGE BB name to live up to.

I want to thank everyone who is supporting me through this CRAZZZZZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY journey…it definitely means so much to know people love me and enjoy watching me. Thank you to my wonderful husband who I miss beyond words. I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU babe!!! Thank you for taking care of our life while I am away so I could pursue a dream of mine. Kids, thank you for being understanding while I am away. Please know I love each one of you from the bottom of my heart and I think and pray for you EVERY SINGLE DAY!!! You are my heart and my world.

HUBBY I LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE THE BESTEST:):):):) MISS YOU EVERY SECOND XOXOXOXOXOXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX OMMYYY AND YOUR WIFEY HASN'T LOST IT I PROMISE;))))):);)))) HEHEHE OHHH YEA AND ANYTHING RACH ASKS FOR PLEASE GIVE IT TO HER. SHE IS AMAZING AND WOOOWWWWW A WHOLE NEW RESPECT FOR MY SIS. SERIOUSLY, LIKE NEVER BEFORE.

Rachel, thank you for encouraging me to step out of my comfort zone and take on this new experience, it is definitely life changing. I hope I am making you proud. You have made me the proudest little sister anyone could ask for. Now that I have experienced this exciting journey I have a whole new amplified respect for you. Rach, seriously I love you sooooo soooo soooo much and I can not believe how graciously you handle life. Every single hour in this house is a roller coaster ride. It is by far THE WILDEST experience I have ever had. Rach I owe you big time. I admire and respect you so much for your accomplishments. Living in the BB house is NEVER easy. It is a total emotion fest at all times as well as uncomfortable, BUT TOTALLY WORTH IT. The BB competitions are SERIOUS STUFF! I mean they may look simple on TV but they are physically and mentally EXHAUSTING.

Rach, I have to tell you about the comps with questions, I get SUPER nervous after the evictions. I try to get into my yoga zen but I just can't get into Rachel mode. I am so used to thinking about things before I answer so when we have .5 seconds to answer, I freeze. On Thursdays', my nerves are kicked into high gear and my stomach is in knots. I need to get over it, but I am analytical. I guess that is best in the real world but not in BB. I miss having you to talk to every day. I'm not going to lie, going 2 months without my yoga mat was beyond atrocious!!!!!! Worst THING EVER. My fellow yogis can relate. My body super hurts from not having the adding cushion from the yoga mat and it is super hard to get traction on a towel. Don't judge!!! Yoga is definitely a MAJOR stress relief in this pressure cooker. I keep finding that in the social aspect my yoga mentality has totally benefitted my game but in the "athletic" and "Q&A" comps I function more efficiently when I am pumped up. TRYING TO FIND BALANCE IN THE BB HOUSE IS NEXT TO IMPOSSIBLEEEEEEEEEEE, but I try every day.

Brendon, I love you so much. Thanks for taking such amazing care of my sister. I have a whole new respect for you as a person and a man after living in the Big Brother house. The way you supported Rachel when you didn't have to is so commendable. I would pay to have gone through this journey with someone who I knew 100% had my back. I feel very alone every single day in this house and I know how much it meant to Rachel to have had you with her. OMGOSHHHHH I just think this experience is soooooooooo totally NUTSSSS. I LOVE YOU:):):):):)

Momma, OMMMMMYYYYY, wowooowwwooww!!!! Whatever Rach has told us about the BB experience you have to amplify times 100000000000000000000000000000000000000. No seriously it is that redic!!! I mean …WOW! Mom I miss you every single day. I love you sooooooo much and you are my best friend and the woman I admire most in the world. You are such an amazing woman and I hope I make you proud. I pray for you and dad every day and I thank God he gave me godly parents that taught me how to be a woman of character. I have always known that I am blessed to have a mom and dad that sacrifice everything for Rach and I. However, being locked in a house for over 2 months I realize how your beautiful nature and kind hearts have made my heart able to love and truly care for others. I realize having integrity is something that is instilled in you and I feel so lucky that God gave me you to teach me the things that are important in life. I know God has a purpose for my life and this experience has given me that much more drive to do things that make a positive impact for others -- and definitely not tear people down. I can't wait to start my life goals and I hope I am a good example for others and I hope I make you proud because you and dad deserve to be proud of the daughters you have raised. You are both (AND MY WONDERFUL HUBBY) the most amazing people I have in my life and thank you for devoting your life to protecting Rach and I and caring enough to teach us right from wrong. No matter what you see on this show, know that even if I look sad or hurt, my heart is happy. I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH AND I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZZZYYY. I can't wait to have my mentor back. I LOVE DADDY TOO! HI DADDDDD >>>>MUAHHHHHHHHHH HUGS AND KISSES!

THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART FOR EACH PERSON WHO VOTED FOR ME IN THE BEGINNING OF THE GAME. I HOPE I HAVE KEPT YOU ENTERTAINED AND I LOVE YOU ALL AND I APPRECIATE THE SUPPORT BEYOND WHAT I COULD PUT INTO WORDS. PLEASE UNDERSTAND THIS GAME IS SOOO MUCH PRESSURE AND IF I MAKE MOVES YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND, THERE IS GOOD REASON. LOVE YOU SUPPORTERS AND BRENCHEL ARMY!!!! XOXXOXOXOXOOOOXXXXXXX

SHOUT OUT TO MY BESTIES THANKS FOR THE SUPPORT!

I am so happy that I developed a relationship with Helen, she is an amazing person and such a blessing. My heart is broken that she left this house. UGGGGHHHHH. I wanted she and I to go to the end together. Unfortunately, we couldn't get the people out of this house that were detrimental to our game as a duo.

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