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HoH Blog: Spencer

Posted on Sep 10, 2013 11:25am

It's still hard for me to grasp the idea that I'm HOH! I never would've thought I'd ever get on Big Brother, much less be HOH going in to the final four!

To be honest……I'm terrified. My game has been crazy, to say the least. After "The Moving Company" fell apart (thanks to McCrae and Jeremy), I found myself being the "easy" and "expendable" option for every HOH to put up. This sucked. It's emotionally draining being on the block 7 times. Coming into the house I wanted to be likable and fun to be around, but when you're constantly on the block it's tough to be either of those two things. I learned very quickly that when you're on the block the best thing you can do is let your opponent self destruct, which due to the stress, usually happens. Second best thing to do is talk ZERO game. I hated to see Howard go. He is a great guy. I do however feel that his eviction helped my game. People thought he was shady, and I was guilty of being shady too by association. All things considered I wouldn't change anything about my game…even the bad days…because I'm still here!

Day 77 was the best day for me in the house. The Exterminators pulled, as I see it, the biggest move so far in the game. Getting Amanda and Elissa out was AMAZING! Then to top it all off I won HOH! It was an incredible day.

I love this game. This has been the most incredible experience of my life. I'm just a normal working man. I'm still in shock that all this is happening to me.

I am in LOVE with the most beautiful and amazing woman in the world! I think about my sweet Marilyn everyday, and can't wait to see her!

Winning $10,000 wearing a chicken suit is as fun as you might guess it to be.

I don't think I'll go down in Big Brother history as one of the best players ever, but I've played my heart out. I got dealt a few crappy hands and bluffed my way to this point and I'm still sitting at the table. I'm extremely proud of that.

There's so much I want to say! Sorry I'm rambling.

The best things that've happened to me in the game…..

Candice screaming at me in front of everyone. She made me seem sympathetic, which allowed me to get back in good with Helen.

Howard leaving. It made me seem weaker without a partner.

Teaming up with Andy week 8

Winning the POV when I did. I know Helen was wanting me out.

I want to tell my family how much I love them. Thank you all so much for your support. I love you Marilyn and can't wait to kiss your beautiful face! I miss my dogs… Murdock and Dutch!

Marilyn, Thanks for the HOH letter. It's been a source of strength.

A special thanks to anyone out there supporting me and rooting me on! It means the world to me!!! I would also like to encourage everyone to follow your dreams no matter how unobtainable they may seem. I know it sounds cheesy and cliche, but I'm living proof that dreams come true.

I am truly in awe of my blessings…..

All my best, Spencer

I hope everyone loves this season!!!

Check out Spencer's HoH Photos!