I want to start off by saying THANK YOU to all the Big Brother super fans out there! You guys rock! Coming into this house as a super fan has been an unbelievable experience. Being in the same HOH room that Dan has stayed in, using the same bathroom that Mike Boogie used, lying on the hammock where Brenchel fell in love, it's all very surreal. I think I have an advantage being a super fan in here because I NEVER get bored. I'm constantly thinking about the game and past players, so my mind is always occupied, while others are just sitting there complaining about being bored. WHAT?! We are in the dang Big Brother house, you can't be bored. You have to cherish every moment, whether it's a good moment, or a horrifying one. THE CHALLENGES! They are SO amazingly fun!!! Every time we play a BB staple I freak out as a fan, then realize I get to actually play this, and hopefully kick some butt. One thing I never realized is how sore you are after these physical challenges, I can barely walk up the stairs on the days after playing. But when you are in the moment you feel nothing, I come out with cuts and bruises and I am so filled with adrenaline during the game that I don't even feel it. With the mental challenges it's amazing how much I just shake out of nerves but as soon as a question is asked, I immediately get into game mode and can think perfectly clear.
Fans?? What are those. Geez, I hope I have some people out there that can respect my game! And if I do, I want to meet each and every one of you, to say thank you. It's very different watching the show and actually playing it. I remember watching the show and getting mad at some players for not getting out the people that I hated and knew that they hated too. If I didn't have to worry about making certain enemies in here, there definitely would be different people in the house. One of the hardest things about this house is keeping your mouth shut when someone is annoying you or pissing you off. I can't tell you how many times so far I have had to walk into a different room in order to keep from saying something incredibly stupid and crippling to my game. Something I didn't expect is how hard it is to vote out someone you love as a friend, but can't have in this game as a player. I miss Hayden so much, he's one of the funniest guys on the planet and I wish I could hang out with him every day, but sadly I had to help send him packing in order for me to get closer to the end. There are only 3 girls left in this house now and it's very scary, but as the girls who are left, we had to vote them out. Once you get rid of a certain amount of females, the men HAVE to start turning on each other, and I think it's already starting. I've played what I think is a very low key game so far, but trust me, it's about to get cray in the BB house. Although The Detonators and I have had a rocky relationship, I can really see us making it to the final 5, and if we do, then daaaaaang, good job us! I'm going to stick real close with them until we get there.
Big Brother is just a game, but I have made some amazing relationships in this house, specifically Nicole, Cody and Derrick. Nicole is such an awesome girl! From day one we knew we were going to have a certain connection, and she is the only girl in this house who hasn't gotten on my nerves, that's impressive. She is so down to earth, hilarious, and awkward, my 3 favorite things in a girl, and I hope we stay friends for a long time after this. Remember that what happens in this house is just a game, no game move will ever purposely be against Nicole as a person, it will be purely strategic. Cody is my best friend in this house. I love listening to stories of his childhood. It is so nice to have another married person here to share stories with. Derrick is one of the most genuine men I have ever met. By the way, Zach Attacks up close and personal are incredibly terrifying and horrible; he can be so cool one minute and then things don't go his way and he freaks out. That being said, as hard as it is living with him, I actually do like him, and I plan on being friends with him outside of here.
I want to say thank you to my family. My goodness, if you guys weren't so good to me, I don't think I would be so emotionally strong in this game. Timothy, every time I am down I just think about your giggles and how you're probably telling everyone hilarious stories that I can't wait to hear. Thank you for being the best husband on this dang planet, fo realz. I hope I can be an even better wife by bringing home $500,000 :) I love you to the moon and back. I hope my parents are proud of me because they are the best parents that have ever lived! (That goes to my in laws too, for being an awesome set of second parents!) Mother, since you know the game better than anyone at home I hope you are explaining to the family when I make moves that don't seem smart at the moment, remind the family this is a marathon, not a sprint. Father, remind mom that this is only a game and not to take it personally when people are coming after me or say rude things. To all my friends, I've made some really good friends here that are like brothers and sisters to me now, but no one can replace you guys! Fam, I can't wait to come home to you guys and hug you again, but I have a mission to accomplish, and gosh dang it, I'm going to win.
Yes, this game is way harder than I could have ever imagined, but it's also way more fun than I anticipated. I am going to play my heart out in this game until the very last second, I will not give up, or be beaten. So ladies and gentlemen, I hope to be seeing you at the finale sitting in an orange chair.