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January 5, 2005
2005. A new year. Am I supposed to feel different? I don't feel different. But I do feel hungry.
January 6, 2005
Why is everyone all over me about college? Today, even You Know Who butted in with his two cents. "Go see Dawson State, get informed, blah blah blah." All I know about college I learned from bad movies. Apparently it's nothing but preppies battling the nerds, who are building some sexy robot woman, and the furious dean wants to kick everyone out. I don't get the point.
January 7, 2005
Went to see Dawson State with Adam today. Despite my hesitation, it was okay. I guess I could see myself there. Plus I met this cute boy, Roger, who I'm pretty sure was totally flirting with me. Is it bad that I just said that?
January 9, 2005
Did I mention that I'm a genius at Rock Paper Scissors? You heard me right. Genius. Actually, genius isn't even a strong enough word. I'm more than a genius because I don't even have to think about it. Like Luke tries to analyze it and all, but me? I'm just there. I'm, like, one with the rock. And paper and scissors, too, I guess…
January 10, 2005
Adam met Roger today. That was a little tense. Adam is jealous. And I feel bad because I like him feeling jealous. But he really has no reason to. I really do love him. It's just that Roger is so contagious. He doesn't even know me but he gets excited about helping me. He's just so full of energy and optimism. And Adam's…well, not. They're just so different. Maybe that's why…aarrrgh! Just forget it. Why am I even thinking about this? This is all You Know Who's fault…
January 11, 2005
All right. Forget everything I said. Forget Roger, forget college, forget Rock Paper Scissors. Why can't I do anything right? I went to college like You Know Who asked and it only made things worse. Adam's mad, I feel stupid...why does He put me through this? I do what I'm asked and I've accepted that that's the way it is. But why can't I feel good while I'm doing it? Why does everything have to be a struggle?
January 12, 2005
So much to say about today! Starting with Tuchman's a total loser who still lives with his mom who nags him like he's a fifth grader. Truly one of the high points of my life. And, I have to admit, I got some good advice from You Know Who. I was ready to throw in the towel, not looking ahead. But one move informs the next, right? I have to remember that. So I had a showdown with the geeks and whipped Friedman at Rock Paper Scissors. Unfortunately, I lost to Luke, but it was intense and, strangely, I think we found respect for each other we never knew we had. From here on out, it's all about finding a college for Adam and me.
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