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February 14, 2005
Valentine's day. First one in a while that I've actually had a valentine. It's pretty cool, even though Adam totally showed me up by making me the coolest card. I just bought his. And some socks. So maybe that evens it up a bit, no? And then there's the cupcakes with Mom. We have this tradition of making Valentine's cupcakes. We've been doing it ever since I can remember. How cute are we?
February 17, 2005
Yes! Remember how I was so psyched to go to the Garage Fest? Well, of course tickets sold out, like, instantly, but now Adam's boss has hooked him up with two free tickets! It's gonna be sooooo awesome! Now I just have to convince my Mom to let me go. She can't say no, right? I mean even the Man Himself approved. Basically. Which should make me suspicious, because he's never been like, on my side, but I'm too stoked to be anything but…freakin' stoked. Sweet!
February 18, 2005
I can't believe this! Mom is being such a bitch! What is her problem? I've never asked her for anything like this before and I've given her no reason to doubt that I can handle it. It's one night. With Adam who she knows is totally trustworthy. We've never fought like this before and I am so bummed. Whatever. I'm going anyway.
February 19, 2005
I told my Mom I'm going to spend the night at Grace's tonight. I wonder if she believes me. I also had to lie to Adam and tell him Mom said it was okay to go to Garage Fest. If only I could tell her what You Know Who said she'd understand. If she'd just let me play my own hand, I wouldn't have to lie.
February 20, 2005
Whoa. That was, um…not what I expected. Adam thought the trip to Garage Fest meant we would have sex. And it really upset him when I wouldn't. Why is this so hard for me? I love Adam. I really do. I just…I don't know. It's not that I don't want to have sex. It just…came out of nowhere. Maybe if we'd talked about it first…I guess I just don't want sex to change anything between us. But it already has. And now I've alienated him. And my Mom. And now I have no one to talk to. It shouldn't be a big deal, right? Plenty of girls my age have done it. Probably lots of times. Probably in trucks, even. But that's not what I want to remember. I want to remember that I was in love and it was beautiful. Not that I was in a truck. Why can't Adam understand that? Forget it. I can't think about this anymore.
February 21, 2005
I made up with my Mom, thank God. I guess I can say that literally, huh? King of all Kings told me I just had to reach out and he was right. I'm so glad, too. I was going crazy with all this stuff. And Mom, of course, totally understood. I talked to Adam, too, and I guess we worked things out. I know he feels bad and I feel bad, too, so hopefully…I don't know. I don't know how important the whole sex thing is to him. I don't even know how important it is to me, so…anyway, I'm still grounded for lying to Mom. And I bet she'll use this to rope me into helping out at parent teacher night next week…d'oh!
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