One of the biggest things that surprised me about the entire SURVIVOR: ALL-STARS was how difficult it was. It was physically--and mentally, I would say--more tough than I had planned, certainly more tough than the original game I played. Why? I'm not exactly sure. But, physically, more depleted, way, way earlier; lots of things played into that. Did I think people were playing really hard? No, I didn't think they were playing hard or well. Whoops! So much for what I thought: I'm gone!
But…interesting. You know, I can't wait to see it. I keep saying that I can't wait to see what really was going on. I came to Tribal Council tonight really thinking that Colby was going. I've never had my torch snuffed; I've never had it put out; my torch has always remained lit. How did it feel to have it put out? Okay; it felt okay. Maybe it was my time. I like the shock of it. I like that I played. My gosh, this last afternoon before Tribal Council, I was running from one spot to another trying to catch that conversation, talk to this person about that, trying to instill in whoever I thought I was going to be close to that they could count on me. But I obviously made some errors. Many of them!
The second time around, the biggest difference for me was probably the lack of newness, knowing what the game is, knowing the intensity of the living conditions. You're IN them, and it's tough. It's very difficult. I found myself wanting out of the game a few times really, really early on. I kicked myself in the butt and said, "What the hell are you talking about? You've got a check waiting for you." Surprise, surprise! No, I don't!
But still, fun game! Fun game! I would do SURVIVOR…well, now I'm lying. I was going to say I'd do a third, fourth and fifth time: yeah, right! Initially, when you're at home and you're thinking about the game, and you've had some time, and you haven't been out camping, you're thinking, "Yeah, let me back in again!" And an opportunity to win some money. But when you get in it, it's pretty tough.
Did I learn anything on SURVIVOR about me or anything meaningful in life, and blah blah blah? No. Abso-freakin'-lutely not!
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